well i asked him if he's single and the answer is no of course the answer is no of course he's seeing someone why would he not be seeing someone great fun guy like him is probably in a very fulfilling relationship and gets a smooch from a lovely partner every single day and it puts a pep in his step and makes him delightful to be around. everyone i like is either seeing someone or overseas and it sucks and im cursed and im cursed and im cursed and im fucking cursed

stupid ass autitic brain why do I gotta fall so hard and fast for one rando why can't I have a little attraction here and there like a normie why can't I be like oh this person seems cool I'll get to know them no its like one little thing turns me feral and then I can't breathe whenever they walk into the room fucjkkkkkkkk